Sunday, October 5, 2014
It was Christmas. Phoebe was home from college, where her third semester had been as expected, except for that one thing she had on her mind. As she, now after her mom's last wedding had a very stepfather, who was sort of very harsh and strict about religion, she waited until he was out for a while, before speaking to her mom about it. Her mother's two younger children were at the time also out with the youngest's father.
“It's a semi-Christian and semi-pagan thing,” she told her. “They practice something which is a bit, only, like speaking in tongues, but which is also into sort of being a language on its own! It's almost unchristian, I say, but no they do realize Christ's worthiness in their sentences!”
“Who is it that told you about it?”
“Oh, it's that half-Aborigine girl, Christine,” Phoebe answered.
“Oh,” her mother said. “So it's an Aborigine cunning that it's about?”
”No, it's a Nordic cult,” Phoebe said to her mother, who responded by looking at her with a grin about her own heritage from that part of the world.
“I see,” she mused. “That could mean that we also could become part of that secret cult, then, right?”
“I think we might be able to, if we learn what they are doing with their rune alphabet and stuff!”
“Why is that?”
“It's because that's what they use for that type of reasoning! It's by associating to the rune meaning of a sound that they do it!”
“Oh! But then there are also other ancient alphabets that associate each sounds with one meaning - or at least I think there are. So I'm not too sure that this was totally into something so fantastic.”
“Perhaps, mom, but then again they are into smart stuff about how to make secondary and tertiary associations - and by the way, they were also very much into our own Latin alphabet, and like old Hebrew - or something - interpretations of its sounds.”
Phoebe's mom looked thoughtful. After a while she asked: “How can we be sure their not into anything as hazardous as that other cult, the one with the God-is-sex attitude among its superiors, and the (even more horrible!) semi-satanism among its inferiors?!”
“I can be sure!” Phoebe retorted. “It's not about satanism, it's about pagan worship, but at it's best. They're not satanists, and not very much into being too sexual.”
Her mother giggled a little. “How can you be sure about it?” she insisted.
Phoebe sighed. “Oh mother! I guess I can't be sure if it's in that sense it has to be! But I can be certain that they haven't been into not having a Christ there, and they're also into like warning about those other cults, for example the one you meant, mom!”
But her mother giggled once more and then said: “We aught to actually watch out about them anyway! Besides, I don't think we need to be into anything that anyone else could believe is not really much into Christianity like us!
“Mom, why do you feel that we are into it?! I mean we just go there almost every Sunday. It's not like we pray anymore than what the others around us there do!”
“That's exactly what I'm saying. Some of them pray even better than I do, not to mention you or your stepdad! You don't want those people to be praying against us rather than for our benefit, do you?”
Phoebe sighed. “Mom, it's not much smarter to pray all the time than to get into stuff like this, and then to alternate that with the prayers we're used to!”
Her mother smiled at this. “Well,” she said at last, “it's not we who are into not praying, and thereby there's a perhaps to that we can actually look into the possibilities of doing that kind of a thing! But I'm really not too sure about what your father will say about it! He might be really opposed to even giving it a chance! He's very much a man to stand for his ideals as much as he can, and although he doesn't feel like praying as much as I do, he still feels that it's Christ who is that only resurrection, and that that's the way things really aught to continue being!”
Phoebe looked relieved, even though she thought about her stepdad as someone who might possibly pose a threat to her new interest. “I feel,” she said, “that it's he and not I, nor even you I suppose, who are as stuck up as that! Can't we, mom, just tell him to look into it? I mean don't you feel certain that he will find them - at least potentially - good enough for even our family to look into?”
Her mother giggled, this time with an edge of impertinence to her. “Please don't speak as if looking into something was about being into that other people should be hoping to look into it too!”
“Please! Don't be sarcastic!” Phoebe retorted.
“I won't be if you admit that you're wrong in repeating my expression more than one time when you answer me - at least if you don't have anything really constructive to say with it!”
Again, Phoebe sighed. “ Oh, OK, mom, I won't!”
With that they ended the conversation for the time being.
Phoebe's stepfather looked astonished, and tried not to even speak to his daughter for a while. Instead he looked at his wife and asked her “Linda, why do you feel even that it makes any sense at all to go visit one of their meetings, when they're clearly into being pagan!?”
“Harold, there's nothing too bad about them, actually! It's guaranteed to be into Christ in some ways! Isn't that so Phoebe?!”
“Yes,” their daughter responded. “They're very much into being about Christ with their way of talking their smart kind of gibberish.”
Phoebe's half-sister, who was only five, broke in and said: “Then why do they try to speak other normal. I mean we can speak Christian! They can speak nonsense!”
“It's not nonsense! I have seen them converse very smartly about a college course assignment, which they readily solved more fluently than I, by speaking that way!”
Her eleven years old half-brother looked at her. “Really?” he asked.
“Yeah, really, Joe!” she answered.
Joe looked thoughtful for a while, then he said: “Wish I could see that! Are there any such people around here whom I could perhaps check out?”
“Yeah, there is someone. I know one girl from my Spanish class in college, who lives fairly close to here. But she's not very skilled at what they're doing, I think.”
“Do you think ... ah, ... Is it possible for me (or us, I guess) to go visit her, and check that out anyway?”
“In fact it might be. We did become a little friendly, and really I do have her address, even. ... But it's not at all a safe bet that you're welcome as well as me!”
“Oh! Come on sis! I wouldn't be that much of a nuisance! Actually, I think we should go there like immediately - or just I, perhaps! Or is it like you want to sort out some, or so, about her with me first?”
Phoebe laughed a little before answering: “yeah, I guess we could go there right away; but I also could wait for a few years, and then you'll find out from for example me what they're like!”
He looked stubborn. “I feel we could go there immediately, and that there's not an excuse for pretending there's a reason to stay away from it!”
Their stepfather studied him for a while. At last he decided to say something that was also to Phoebe: “I think you two could very easily go there and just ask. It's not really about trying to be part of it or anything, which I think you should emphasize. I dare say that when you come back you won't find it to be anything but anti-Christian, and that you'll thereby not try to speed up your language the way those people are!”
Phoebe called to see if here friend was there, which she was. She asked if she was OK with a visit, and got the answer that she was. So when the supper was finished they both grabbed their bikes and went to her place.
At about half past seven Joe and Phoebe arrived at a small house just outside of their village where they and their family dwelled. A young woman opened. “Oh, hi Phoebe!” she burst out. Then she looked at her brother. “Who's that?”
“It's my brother Joe. ... I apologize for bringing him with me. It's just that he very much wanted to see that smart smart way of speaking, and I hoped that you might be the one to show him. I mean there's no else one I know around here who knows any of it!”
Christine thought for a while. “Well, how do you mean that I should show him? It takes two people to have a conversation and just one person saying something wouldn't prove anything, would it?!”
A bit nonplussed by this, Phoebe admitted that she hadn't really thought about that, but that she meant that somehow she, Christine, could speak like either in a monologue or perhaps that she, Phoebe herself, could be of assistance.
Christine looked at Joe. “Well,” she said after a while, “I can teach you, but not if there's any stir about this kid you're bringing along!”
Joe looked back at her. “I won't be any stir!” he said, sounding quite sure of himself.
“Alright, come on in, then!” Christine said, and they did.
She showed the two of them to a living room, where she sat down and told them to do the same.
When seated, Joe looked at his hostess curiously and asked: “How do you say ... ehm, for example: The war was on because of the threats of famine?”
“That depends on what context you have!”
He thought for a while. “Oh, so the context has to say most about that!”
“Yeah, you could say so!”
“OK, let's say the context is ... that I spoke to a friend about school work and he didn't know why that war was on!”
“I guess you two could be into saying something like ... hey I can't quite pronounce that Swedish sound for the letter U, so I'm afraid I can't tell you!”
He looked her, almost getting mad at her for this response. “But which other sounds would there be in the statement?”
She looked back. “I think it would with a sound like the th in thunder, and begin with an ordinary n-sound, I think.”
“I'm not sure!”
Joe looked at her again, very thoroughly this time. “Why do you think that I and my buddy could then have communicated something?!”
“Because there is a meaning to it, that's why!”
“It's because the first sound can mean famine or so, the second is an indicator of where something springs from, and the third means war gods or something!”
Both he and Phoebe thought for a while. Then Phoebe said: “Well, thanks!” and looked at her brother and asked: “or aren't you satisfied with that?”
He thought for a while longer, then he said: “I really very much would like to learn some more!”
Christine looked at him. “Are you sure that I want to teach you of all people all about it, though?”
He sighed. “No, I'm not, of course. ...” Then he looked at the two college girls and said: “Well I hope you have a nice friend in my sister there!”
Phoebe giggled. “We can get along, and we have tonight - or at least this far, I think!”
Christine said: “I guess we can work on this friendship, then, the two of us. But on the other hand, I would like to give you lessons, but for a price. It'll cost you a few bucks for each lesson.”
“We can pay, I and my sister!”
“Why would I have to pay for it?!” Phoebe retorted.
It was silent for a while. Christine looked at the two of them, then asked: “Well, perhaps I could teach even you a little more, cause after all I'm a full member now, so I'll be knowing what to teach. ... Of course, Phoebe might become a member herself, but I might speed up the process of it happening - for a few bucks per lesson!”
“I don't know if we should - apart from perhaps secretly - get very much deeper into this stuff,” Phoebe said.
“Secretly will do!” Christine answered. “But it's not I who have gotten paid for even the first lesson yet. And perhaps you could begin there. ... And, OK, I'll give you a bargain, since I can teach the two of you at once, you'll only have to pay for one lesson for now!”
Phoebe sighed. “How much do you want for it?”
“Let's say four bucks!”
Phoebe came to think about that she hadn't brought a wallet. “OK, but I don't have any money on me,” she said. “And I don't think he does either!”
“No, I don't.”
“Alright you owe me four bucks, then!”
“OK, I owe you the four bucks I do, but I'll not be having to pay them until I know that there will be at least one more lesson. That is I'll pay doubly if, but then also only if, there's a second lesson!”
Christine sighed. “Yeah, I guess that will be fair enough.”
When the two half-siblings came home (at about nine), their parents interrogated them about how it had been at this half-Aborigine girl's place, and whether or not they had reached any conclusion about her cult's so-to-speak language. Phoebe answered that there hadn't been anything that said that the realism was quite amiss in their kind of communication, but that she wanted to know a lot more about it before she could comment any further. Joe said he felt something similar, and that they were close to the truth about actually telling each other something, but that they weren't communicating as if there were a real language to be speaking in. Phoebe wasn't totally sure about his last point, but felt that it was almost a certainty that it couldn't quite work as one.
The next day, which was the day before new years eve, the two of them went there again, although their stepfather had scolded them for actually believing in that stuff, which he considered weird and perhaps dangerous. Their mother, too, had scolded them and said that they weren't into quite knowing what they were doing, especially since she had asked them for money for her 'lessons'. It wasn't Joe, though, who gave up even at this point, and eventually he managed to get his older half-sister to call her friend, who happily told them that they could be there at around three a clock for it.
At five to three they arrived at her place. She was stood in her garden awaiting them, and showed them in to the living room again. After a while she began to have it there was to be a consolidation between friends for the sake of the lessons. She thereby took the hand of her friend in her own right hand, and her brothers in her left. She stood there holding them for half a minute, then she burst our that she wanted to hug them both! After that she sat down and said that she took them for granted as her friends forever more.
Even so, she insisted on having Phoebe pay in advance, for the second lesson, and at the same time, of course, pay also for the one they had already had. Phoebe paid her friend, who thereby felt satisfied and began another lesson with the two of them. They listened and even tried some expression, and finally figured out how to be into that this language (or so to speak) was going to take over their thoughts for a while, whilst they were trying to be thorough about some given subject. “Oh, this is great!” her friend Phoebe finally broke out, and her little brother seem think so as well.
It was not until about ten that the two half-siblings finally came home after this second visit. It was not at all too much of a waste of time, which was what their mother had expected. Even their father was soon a bit impressed by what they had learned, although he thought of it as rather obnoxious of this stepdaughter of his to find it in him to have to confess to that.
Phoebe and Christine continued the lessons, but Phoebe only had to pay for one of them, upon which they then had five more. After that, Christine had taught her all she knew, even including some new such communication-skill cunning that Christine learned from being a member of a club they had, where they worked more on dealing with making ancient mythologies fit into modern society, into Christian and into semi-atheistic belief systems, than on teaching new members all about languages. But Christine recommended her friend as a new member for her elders among them, and soon after had Phoebe apply for becoming one.
Phoebe thereby felt reassured that she would be able to manage this type of skill in the future. And she and Christine were already fairly fluent at discussing various phenomena in the cult's kind of equally succinct as spiritually oriented way. Both of them attended meetings with fellow sect members. Because, although they called themselves a club, they were into worship of so peculiar kinds that it tended to be a sect, no matter what they said, or least so Phoebe figured about them.
But she liked her sect, at least for the most part. What she didn't agree with was some people who seemed to be into something reminiscent of neo-Nazism among a few of the members that she ran into at the meetings. Luckily, as it seemed to her, this was counteracted by an anti-racist attitude among the senior members. Thereby, she was happy to receive a note from one of them, a female who had seemed concerned about her being a newcomer. The note said that she aught to come to a secret meeting with her and a few of the others, in order to sort things out about dangers with some of the members being racist or brutal.
The meeting was on Saturday night, which seemed rather unlikely to be a bad time, though she felt that she needed to check on if there were anything big in her school the week after. There wasn't, so she accepted, happily, and that Saturday night she went there and expected to discuss such issues. What happened, though, was that the three other girls that were there discussed the devil instead of the people involved, which she almost immediately found a bit naive and eventually got frustrated by.
In response to Phoebe's attitude, one of the girls talked to her in a rather private corner of the room. There she stood beside her and said to her that she needed to be into interpreting them “as the devil himself,” for the sake of understanding what these kinds of people are all about. After having talked about this for a while, she sat down with this the new member and began saying to her that they both could be into trying to be sure about that those who weren't her closest friends were not to be trusted at all, except for the possible invitation from them to become one of her closest friends. In that she stood up again and scorned them demonstratively with a gesture of pleasure over having made Phoebe a new best friend as well.
Apart from this sect business, so to speak, things went almost as usual with Phoebe and her school work. There was a slight difference in her attitude towards school, but it was not greater than that no one who didn't know the details noticed anything, except at most the after all fairly few times when she openly spoke the sects succinct language, which was, in her college already a fairly ordinary change among the students. Underneath this, though, there was a fairly huge change because of her new close friends.
During the meetings with the cult, there was sometimes a short pause, for prayer - or you might say seance, which was supposed to last for four or five minutes, and be done in silence. This prayer was also to be done in (so to speak) 'solitude'. This meant that there was not supposed to be any assumptions done by any participants that she or he was to view him- or herself as actually needing to be aware of the people close by. It did not mean, however, that one was - at all - to avoid closeness to each other.
Immediately before such a prayer, Christine seated herself very very close to Phoebe. She seemingly trusted her to want her to be as close as this, it seemed, because her attitude expressed a pleasure in being liked, somehow. But Phoebe didn't like being very very close to her, especially since her bosom seemed unusually open. However, as the rules were, it seemed, she had to pretend as if nothing about it.
After the prayer, Christine seated herself only a little bit less close to her friend, who was thereby only a little relieved. She asked: “How come you sat all that close to me? And why did you have an almost unbuttoned shirt?”
“I was just trying to see if you were ready to accept my friendship as total, so that we can be solitary when we're even that close! And - oh - these shirt buttons are a bit to open for you? Well they aren't for me! Because I'm into actual worship and care for God, Christ and eternity! And my bosom is not really out of reach from childhood, meaning that there is no notion of God that can't be seen in it! It is really our bosoms that actually make life real! Remember, even the Great Virgin shows her bosom, and sometimes even a lot more than I did now.”
Phoebe settled for that her friend could very likely have a good enough point about Virgin Mary. She thereby began to ponder on if she herself should let her breasts be fairly visible, and if so when. Christine looked her in the eye and then whispered to her: “You aren't supposed to show it to the men out there, that's all!”
Phoebe felt a little uncomfortable about this statement. But then she thought about Jesus, and how his teachings seemingly, she thought, had - at least perhaps - really always been into something that actually might mean that only females can be seeking attention without that seemingly being a nuisance for Him or his Father.
It was not, then, she figured, a sin to be like a woman about sensuality. It was, though, somehow a sinful thing for a man, she figured. But then, what about her half-brother at home? What should he actually be into? Should he be a man based on what his father is? If so, is that his stepdad or the biological father it should be?
To the extent he was to become a man, he would have to learn not to be into care for the same sensuality as she and her friend. It was not because of her that he didn't fit into the potential of being of God when being into care for nurturing the bodily fluids of beginning adulthood. Rather it was that he himself was into much more mature attitudes about what care for extravagance would have been had he not been prohibited by God Himself from caring very much about it, she thought. During the rest of the term the issue was brought up a few more times, firstly between her and Christine, and then also between them and their superiors in cult, who seemed to be righteous in believing that indications of femininity should be between women and that only.
The next time Phoebe met her little brother, she saw him as her superior about trying to pretend to be like God. By this she didn't mean that she was too wise for that superiority to be real, but she did mean that everything else about it would be an irony, in a sense, about him being as superior to himself as she now saw to it that she had him subtly realize. She thereby felt that God had finally won a great battle against the vanities of his masculinity.
Joe said that he was not trying to be a man, just trying to be himself. To this Phoebe answered that he has to view himself as himself no matter what his instincts tell him. He didn't answer her for a while, then he said that “There is no pleasure in being a man in that sense. There's just a pleasure in that you, for God's sake, have it in yourself to try to bring me up as though I were your bastard to be taking care of not letting him be anything but the excuse for you to pleasure yourself with gluttony or you know what!”
“What does that say to me, do you think?! That I need some bastard half-brother just for excusing myself?! ... Do you really feel that I could at all be in need of that?! If so, then you're wrong! But the fact of the matter is that you as a God's child are so wise that you aught to stay away from femininity that much more than we, who are only females!”
He looked thoughtful. “OK,” he said. “But what then about my father? And about that I don't have any authority because of both my stepfather and my biological father, by the way!”
“We have a conscience about that, we, the rest of the family do!”
He was startled. “That's not real! .. You can't be calling it a conscience when you don't want me to take care of my own affairs!”
She mused a little at his foolish comment to her. Then she retorted grimly: “You don't realize that thieves aren't really what they pretend to be! Nor do you realize that you yourself are a humble man on the surface, but an actual pretender once you find out what actual manhood is! It's not I but you who realize the worth of trying to pretend something is worthwhile when it is mature enough to become evil when there's to much pleasure in it!”
“Oh, you really think so!?”
“Yeah I do!”
“Then I dare you to tell both mama and the new father about it - and actually, I guess, even the old fathers, too, eventually!”
“I will. Don't worry, I want to tell them!”
At dinner she talked about the new views she had on Christ and God. Her mother, her step-father and even her half-sister looked startled. But she continued: “And thereby, Christ is the proof we can have that everyone is to be treated as a superior if they are male, but only to the extent they are into not pleasuring themselves!”
“But what if,” her stepfather asked, “we feel like knowing about the pleasures you have, for the sake of - our presumed - wisdom?”
Now Phoebe looked a bit thoughtful. After a while she said: “I guess you'll just have to be into pretending as if something about God, and God's will about it.”
“Meaning that we should be into that if we are wise enough for there to be a God in trying to be promiscuous as well, then, and only then I presume, can we be allowed to pleasure ourselves the way you seem to be into that only females are allowed to?”
“I guess it's something like that. But why do you think we pleasure ourselves more than we aught to be?! I mean almost no one of us - females - is into actually smartly trying to pretend to be into something that must be! It's not a must if there are no men, I feel!”
“I doubt that!” her stepfather answered.
Now her half-brother broke in: “Do you know what?! I can read pleasure in those eyes of yours, Harold! Now how come they aren't seemingly punished by God then or something?!”
Harold smiled and said that it was not actually his pleasure that was banned. But that Phoebe probably meant that he should never see himself as the superior he “as a male should be and thereby bring pleasure - of gluttony, perhaps - is that what you mean Phoebe? - to the point of it being a pleasure in trying to possess God!”
“Oh, is that so!” Joe answered.
Phoebe smiled. “Yeah, that's it,” she answered.
As a result, the kid seemed to be both into being superior and also into being inferior, in a way that really set him aside among his friends. He tried to explain this to his mother, but she didn't seem to understand at all. He therefore went to his stepfather and tried to explain things. He seemed to get the part that he was not seemingly OK among his peers, but not really that he could have been manipulated, thoroughly enough for there to be any chance of him being someone who didn't have the potential change for the better in his own hands. ...
But it was not Joe who had that potential. Rather, the fact that he didn't have it got him stuck in that he had been made to seem both superior and innocent enough to be reckoned with as though he didn't have any problem with his appearance, nor with his way of handling his situation. Thereby he had no potential whatsoever to remark effectively against his half-sister's insinuations. It was, weirdly enough, never quite easy for him not to seem too cunning to be in such a trap. At the same time, if one found out, he was sort of too laughable to believe, and fairly few actually believed his surface pride to be anything but his own vanity - a vanity about would-be innocence as well as would-be cunning - or perhaps just one of them. But hardly anyone ever actually thought that much about which, or what that would mean in that case.
It was not really easy for those around him to believe he had been manipulated into being surface proud and then also very insecure, actually about his own being.
Monday, August 11, 2014
Chapter 1“Instead of seeming very innocent, they could try to be the same as everybody else!” Tony said.
His sister shrugged. “Perhaps everybody else is that way, here in this country.”
“Erica,” Tony insisted, “they don't have to be praying all the time as if they were supposedly not mature if they didn't! Look at them! They're totally ridiculous compared to us!”
Erica shrugged once more. “I'm not sure, Tony. I guess they feel that the mercy they want becomes greater if they keep doing it. ... So where's the problem you see with it. ... Besides, they're not quite praying, bro! Daddy has said that it's called 'meditating'. It's something the Hindus do instead of prayer, he said.”
“I know! But that's just their word for it!”
His sister studied him for a while. “Don't you think we perhaps aughta pray in our way more often, instead?”
He looked astonished. “No way!” he burst out.
“Because there's no reason to pray more than twice a day, if you don't wanna become a monk or a nun or something!”
“How do you know?”
He sighed in a way that indicated that he was becoming impatient with her.
“Because no one else that I know does! That's why!”
She looked at him, then indicated the three meditating Hindus. “How about them, then? I see it as if they are already known for us!”
“I mean whites!” he said. “Not Asians!”
“Oh, that's what? So, then do you feel we should be in America instead? There we could take for granted God doesn't need to be prayed a whole lot more to!”
“I'm not sure about that!”
“I'm not sure about you, then, why you don't see it in those people that they are exactly like us, only they don't know about Christ!”
“Since they don't know about Him, they are perhaps like the Jews, but not like real people!”
“I'm truthfully into that daddy wouldn't be doing business with them if so!” she retorted.
“Don't be too sure!” he answered with solemn disgust.
Chapter 2Later that day, Tony saw his sister sitting in the family's back yard, talking to one of the Hindus. It was not he who had insisted that they weren't trustworthy, but he still was annoyed at her attitude about them. So he went up to them and said: “How do you feel that it's worth it to ignore that they possibly can become tricky, Erica?”
The man she was talking to looked at him, with a sincere grin on his face. After a while he stammered: “You can trust that we are polite! I say you can rust that we are real!!”
He looked at him, then at his sister. She responded by saying “You shouldn't come here and interrupt me! I'm here on my own accord! Besides what's there to say that they are not as trustworthy as anybody?!”
He drew his breath in a way that sounded scornful and a bit like a hiss. But after a while he changed his mind. “OK, sis, since you're two years older than I, perhaps I can let you seem to know what you're doing!”
“I insist,” the Indian said, “that you have not to fear that I and she can communicate this openly.”
He looked at them. “I guess I can accept it if you tell me what it's all about,” he said after a while.
“Good!” they both said.
“Then,” the Hindu said, “I will summarize: As I said, karma is that when there is a good or an evil in that you treat others one way, then, sooner or later, that same amount good or evil will come back to you. It sometimes is not until next life. Now, your brother can understand the basic issue of believing the way we have it one should believe.”
“Yeah,” she said. “But I'm not so sure that he cares about knowing it!”
Tony looked at them and said: “I don't know either as a matter of fact!”
They continued talking for a while, and both Erica and Tony learned something about reincarnation and the way the man thought karma could be certified in the next life, if not earlier.
Chapter 3At dinner, Tony said: “Erica, what do you feel about what that Hindu said, that he feels that it's safe to assume there's reciprocity rather than God?”
“He didn't say that!” Erica answered. “He said that God's name is Vishnu and that he rules by making karma the all-accepted above-all rule about everything!”
“He also said that Jesus is not very interesting for him! Thereby he is an evil man! We should not trust those evil creatures and we aughta return to the United States!”
Their parents both looked a bit chocked at this. After a few moments silence their father answered: “No! I have business here! They are not extremely dangerous!”
Their mother broke in and said: “David, maybe he's right! They are unchristian. We can not be trusting them!”
David sighed. “Elsie,” he said, “You should not try to understand what's going on here!”
She looked astonished. “Are you sure, David?”she asked, with a solemn smug.
Erica looked at her. “I can't believe my eyes and ears!” she burst out.
Elsie looked at her with some scorn in her eyes. “You know that even your dad has the notion of them as dangerous! Now we are to be careful about them! Isn't that right David?”
David looked back, and said:” I feel that she is off limits for sure! But I also feel that this is a family that should be into the business of communicating with every kind of person - at least the pious ones.”
“Oh, pious indeed, they are!” she said with an edge of hatred to her voice.
Erica began crying. Her mother looked at her with pity. “I see they've really got you going for them! I can't help but to trust they will ruin the year you have here, even more than already if you don't be good and stay away from talking to them from now on!”
'Tony looked a bit troubled. “I guess I agree, mom,” he said after a while. “She should quit talking to those Indians!”
Their mother gave a sigh of relief. After a while she looked at her daughter and said rather sternly: “Promise me you won't be talking at all, that is if you can help it, with them again.”
“I guess I'll have to promise mom,” she answered. “But if I have to stop talking to them, then what happens to that daddy has to close those business deals with them?”
David looked at them. He cleared his throat. “No!” he said. “No, I can't insist on that she should have to be on oath about that!”
“I don't like it!” she retorted. But the rest of her family agreed upon the opposite.
Chapter 4The next day, after church, Erica finished her homework and then went down to a park nearby. There she met an Indian woman, who was sitting on a park bench. She seated herself to her right.
The woman looked up for a while and smiled. Erica smiled back. “Hi,” she said.
The woman smiled again and asked: “Do you feel that you can be free here in our country to actually talk to us?”
Erica chuckled a little, but looked sad. “I almost can't,” she answered. “The other day my mother tried to make me promise not to ever speak to any of you again!”
“If she did, then what does she mean that it could lead to that she don't and I do have to be treated that way?”
Erica thought for a while. “I'm not too sure about it!” she said at last.
“I say you have to understand us as well as they them who they doing business with!”
Erica sighed at her lack of correct language. Then she chuckled again. “I suppose we could be friends, then, you and I, right?”
The Indian woman looked at her. “I do not feel sure what we are to be friends about, then!”
She sighed again before responding: “I feel that we could be friends about that religion isn't supposed to be so sophisticated at saying that everybody else is wrong!”
“I suppose we already have!” was the answer she received.
Erica thought for a while, then she dared ask her: “Why do you feel that karma should be perceived as the rule to govern us all, when we all feel free to be of God simply by rescue of Jesus being there?”
The woman looked thoughtful for long while. “I think, perhaps,” she said at last, “it's about that karma does take the long time it should take for God to say to himself that there can be trust in everyone. Because if God does not insist on being thorough, then the devil, as you might say, would be there and like you for being as good as he seemingly is! ... I mean they should talk to their God enough for that the God should be smart at caring for the real faith, and that takes fairly many reincarnations!”
Erika looked very thoughtful at this. “Wow!” she said at last.
Chapter 5When home, Erica tried to speak to her brother about what she had learned: “Their piety is almost as through as ours! It's just that instead of Jesus they have it that God takes a whole lot of time for His trust to be thorough and working so well so that the devil - as we do say it - can't seduce us all.”
“I can't say he hasn't gotten them into speaking about him as though they were sure about what they want, and not as it really is, that they cannot see the real God unless they have Jesus!”
Erica looked thoughtful for a while, then she said: “I don't feel that it's Jesus only who should be an assumed solution! For we who are of God, we all assume there to be a solution in both Him and also in the situations that we are in!”
Now he looked thoughtful for a while. “I guess you have a point. But we still have Jesus and they don't!”
“I don't think we are into that God should be thorough if we don't try to give them a chance!”
He looked at her. “Yes, we are into that! It's in the bible that we should be timid and smart at trying to be faithful even without those people around!”
“It's fairly unfair to say they're evil even without them trying to be into trying scorn our people in the first place!”
“In that case they should have their minds up to the change there is to be in that Jesus Christ is for all and that he always will be, so that their minds will become so solemn in their attitudes that they are not of the devil, but of God, like us!”
Erica looked at her brother. “I don't think they aren't very solemn!”
He looked at her. “You don't!?” there was an edge of hatred in his eyes.
She looked down. “I can hardly say it to myself, that this woman I talked to was anything but solemn - apart from being unfit for white type of life, of course!”
He looked at her and sighed grimly. “OK,” he said at last. “So if you insist, there'll have to be the reprisals from the Christ, in that they should be cunning at having it their mercy is of God, but that we are of course natural for it!”
She looked down and sighed. “Yeah. I guess, then,” she answered after a while.
Chapter 6“It's not all about love, then, is it?!” Erica asked her family at dinner that night. “Our religion is about despising other people! As long as they are below you, you feel that they should be seen as unworthy of a merciful treatment!”
Her mother cried. “How can you be so cruel!” she said. “Now that I have had this from you, there'll be no more escapes from that you are of satan! It'll be you, and that's forever, who'll be teh worst of this family on this planet!”
Her father looked at her. “It's not you that we can be trusting anymore! As far as this family is concerned, you are are a stranger from now on! Now go straight up to your room and start packing your things. You'll have to leave to night! If you can, you'll be able to sleep with those Indians you were so fond about!”
Her mother half giggled in a way that sounded almost like she snorted. Her brother looked solemn, but didn't say, nor seem to want to indicate, anything. She looked at them, but there was no way to have it seem like they would be taking it back! They sat there, and after a short pause her mother began eating. Soon after her brother and father did too.